7. Reminder

Although it's the final 10 days already, I think I'm only able to fast in the second week of it which kinda suck to say the least and let me tell you it has been tough. Super tough, may I add.
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Things that I need to reevaluate and ponder upon:
How can my brothers and sisters out there throw away (or rather being forced to) their rights on speaking up their mind, to be who they are and to be misunderstood most of the time by the non muslims and they actually can keep their jihad strong at heart. MashaAllah, how can I be like one?

How can they keep on trying and trying to be a better Muslim albeit their conditions and surroundings do not permit them to do so, while here I am, in an Islamic country, just being a mediocre Muslim?

How can they have such patience in things that they have to go through everyday, every second maybe, which can never be compared to the petty things I've to dealt with everyday?
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I feel like such a bad Muslim now. :c

6. Maybe

I got the job.

I actually got it. Oh my god!!

Ok back story: Was rejected last year due to maybe... my empty CV, and how I handle things back then. Dan juga bukan rezeki saya at that time. Allah knows best.

Had dinner with the boys (le candidates -- 6 of us, and I was the only girl ;-), a day before the assessment day), and our host told us that everything was rebooted. The whole process! Whaddya know?

I actually plan (and waited almost) for a year cooling off period, searching high and low to polish up my skills, to finally fit in the pieces and I re-applied a short of 1 month than the actual cooling off period -- he was all like "That's why you got in, maybe."

Rezekiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. I love Ramadan. Always filled with joyous news! xx (Alhamdulillah, I can't thank my Creator enough!)

One more challenge to face and I'm off.

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I feel like everything is starting to map out (haha, work term that I love to use ;p) to something good. And that is a very good feeling, everybody.

:)

5. (...love this)

If you ask me, honestly, I would want this month to be a hopeful month. I got to know a very joyous news a few days ago, and although every waking particles that make up my body are dying to scream out loud about it but I want to keep it exclusive until I got the affirmation that I need.
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:) Can't stop me from seeing things from a different angle though. Alhamdulillah.
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I'm starting my clean eat mission as of today until end of Ramadhan, inshaAllah. I can do this! Ameen!

4. July, Ramadhan

Ramadhan is coming up soon, and I cannot wait. Always have been my favorite month.

I noticed that Subuh has been getting later and later, which is awesome, more food to inhale before Suhoor ends! Hehe, my Creator is the best <3

Deep inside though, I really hope it'd bring something this year. Be it me: shedding to be a better person, or in a better position. InshaAllah.

3. Friday, flyday, not so much the day.

Actually, it will be in an hour or so. I'm gonna miss my two colleagues tomorrow. It's their last day. Take me with you, pwease?

2. Speechless

Today was not my day I guess. The start of the day was pretty mundane (with an addition of new found Vinyasa poses! Love love love), had my usual shake.. you know the usuals. Office was quite OK before lunch, which was pretty bizarre given the fact that things would get out of hand the minute I stepped in.

Evening though, was very challenging. I mean I'm pretty good at handling issues, well sorta. But this time around I was brought right under the microscopic lens and also brought forward to the spotlight right there and then without solid evidence.  All I could emote was WHAT?!?!WHEN?!?HOW?!?REALLY?!?!?!ISITME?!?!?.

Yup.
Went back to the office with this weird sunken feeling although I know it wasn't my fault. Everyone was chanting, and playing this sympathetic card on me, Are you OK?
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I decided to forget about it and have the longest laugh I had in awhile. Felt good.
Here's to hoping for a good tomorrow. ;)

Good night, ladies and gents.

1. A new start.

Well, flipping a new chapter.
Today, adik texted me that he's gonna be away for a week for a serious mountain hike. I told him this: If you are lost, read Nabi Nuh's doa and tawakkal.

I kind of reflect on my life after that, simply because, sometimes I really need to listen to my own advice and follow it through. How simple was that? If you are lost, get back to Allah and tawakkal. He knows best.

After all, whatever had happen these past few years are rare gems. I should be thankful and spin my perspective on life a little bit more. Worry-less and just, dive in.

Speaking of which, given the fact that I am building my career and struggling with (not so much) debt, I should keep an eye on how my expenses flow, shouldn't it be like that all the time? I'm not a big spender, heck look at my clothes - they all spells 2010 and late. But I spend A LOT on food. I might as well cut down on mindless binge and spend all that money to eat right.

Boss just texted in. On Sunday. What's new.
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In the meantime, this is what I hope for in June:

• White trim for the house, DIY style. At least for our family hall.



(Source: here)
Look how clean and bright this is. I can't wait to paint my walls in greige too. One step at a time.

• White doors. 

• At least 10% goes into my savings.